Wedding Debrief

by

Diana Walker


This work of adult fiction, loosely based on characters portrayed by Russell Crowe, includes adult language and experiences; you have been warned. No copyright infringement on the original work is intended.
Copyright Diana Walker 2006.




DIANA
“Thanks, Mate.  We've got it from here.”  Terry pushes upright from the check-in counter and fishes in his pocket for his parking stub.  “Could you have someone get the two bags and the laptop out of the boot?  I mean, trunk.  And have them brought to our suite?  Thanks.”
 
“No wurries, Mr. Thorne.  Ma'am?  Would you like us to dry your bouquet for you?”  Terry smiles at the clerk's attempt at Strine, and the acknowledgment his terminology was understood.  My smile is because someone has a worse Aussie accent than mine. 
 
At least the clerk hadn't assumed we were married and called me Mrs. Thorne.  I don't know if I could have taken that.  Weddings always make me think of my own marital state.  When I was younger and everyone I knew was getting married, I always managed to convince myself, erroneously, that my date for the event would be good husband material.  Invariably, we would break up within the month.  I don't want to jinx Terry and me with those old thoughts.  In the last few years, I hadn't attended that many weddings.  Reags' and Max's had been the first in over five years.  Everyone I know is settled into whatever marital status they were in and living happy lives.  God knows, I am. 
 
“Thank you for offering, but the wedding florist will be doing that.”  The desk clerk nods and gives our card key to Terry and watches us make our tired way to the elevators.  I'm limping from the tall heels I've worn for over six hours; Terry's favoring his left side from having been on his bum leg for most of that same amount of time.  I'm not sure who is holding up whom. 
 
Terry inserts our card key and presses the button for the Terrace Suite.  There was one button above it – the button simply had a “P” on it.  I've long since stopped being surprised at Terry's financial dichotomy, frugal vs. extravagant.  Tonight I’m much too tired to fuss at him about the cost of the suite.  He leans on the brass railing, and I lean back onto his supporting arm.
 
The doors slide shut, and we ascend to our refuge.  “How many floors to the Terrace?”
 
He transfers his weight from his arm resting on the railing and uses it to draw me to him.  “I don't give a toss.  If they use it as the bridal suite, I'm sure the butler has seen worse.”  He envelops me with his arms, his lips, his love.  “I’ve wanted to do this all day.  From the moment I saw you in the bride's room.”
 
I love the way elevators usually shudder to a stop at my floor.  This one gives no sense of motion and, apparently, glides to a stop.  We are still in a mad clinch when a discreet throat clearing indicates the doors are open, and we have an audience.
 
Never at a loss for words, Terry tosses off a comment.  “Be with you in a moment, Mate.  Weddings get to her,” and waves to our unseen observer.  It is so Terry to put the blame on me.  I turn my head enough I can see a hand press the Close Door button.     
 
We hear, “Very well, Sir,” as the doors slide silently shut again.
 
“At least we weren't snatching at clothes this time the way we did in Cairo.”
 
“At least.  Today it hasn't been two weeks since I've seen you.  It only feels like it.”  He cradles my face in his hands.  “Diana, take a step back and let me look at you for a tic.” 
 
“Try some deep breaths and think of how poorly the Souths did this year.”  A little laughter might help Terry get out of this predicament.  It’s worked before.
 
“Do you know how bloody gorgeous you look?”  I am incredibly fortunate that Terry understands my smart mouth, and his single mindedness keeps him on track; I would never get any compliments from him if my comments distracted him.
 
I can feel my face start to redden at his compliment.  I don't do admiration well.  I always expect a negative to follow even though Terry has never done that to me.  “Thank you.  You took my breath away when I started down the aisle and saw you beside Max.  I didn't think I could take my next step, but I had to keep walking to get to you.”
 
“I couldn't wait for Melody to get to her place so I could look at you fully.  I believe I was bobbing and weaving to see past her.”  His hands smooth across my shoulders and down my arms. 
 
“Even being with her as much as I have, I still think her name is Marjorie.  With us having the host and hostess duties for so many of the functions, I didn't have a chance to get to know her.  All our conversations were so superficial.  To me she was a bit player in this production.”
 
Terry laughs at the mention of Marjorie/Melody.  “She's nothing like my stereotypical Marjorie from the little I time I spent with her.”  I’m not the only one in this relationship who’s explaining their statements; even in an elevator we ought to release for other guests, Terry will give me more details.  “The Marjorie I knew would have swooped in with a sense of entitlement, anxious to become the center of attention.  At home she would have explained everything that had been wrong with the night though she would never lift a finger at the time to help.”  I don't think I would have liked his first wife.   
 
“She may have changed over the years.”  Terry looks unconvinced with my tepid defense of a woman I have never met, but he doesn't challenge me.  I loosen my right hand from his grasp and reach into his inside coat pocket for his handkerchief. 
 
“Now I remember why I hate wearing lipstick.  This kind is supposed to stay on me.”  I dab at his smiling mouth then start to rub.  He takes his handkerchief from me and puts it back into his pocket. 
 
“The sooner we get into the suite the sooner we can get rid of Jeeves, and it won’t matter where your lipstick appears.”  Terry reaches past me, presses the Open Door button, and ushers me out of the elevator with his hand at the small of my back.  Jeeves is standing off to the side with two glasses of champagne on a silver platter in his hands.
 
“Welcome to the Terrace Suite, Mr. Thorne, Ms. Walker.  May I offer you a glass of champagne?”
 
“Thanks, Mate.  Please call me Terry, and this is Diana.”  Terry's using his bloke smile on Jeeves.  His hand is still at the small of my back using his thumb to make small circles there, but his eyes are full of mischief.  After the elevator ride, I think anything is possible from him.  His better sense kicks in, and he rethinks what he had planned, at least for the moment.  He hands me one of the flutes and takes the other for himself.
 
I propose what I hope is the last toast of the day.  “To getting them hitched.”
 
“To us getting some peace and quiet in our own celebration.”  We touch our flutes together and take a drink of the champagne.  I think it’s the same as Max and Reags served at the reception, but at this point, my taste buds are incapable of detecting any difference.  We could be drinking Andre's, for all I know.
 
Jeeves takes the hint.  “My name is Robert.  If you need anything, please press the button marked Butler on the phone.”
 
“Robert, could you see about getting our bags delivered soon?  I've been in this monkey suit long enough.”
 
“Of course, Sir.”  Robert closes the door quietly as he leaves.
 
“I thought he was required to show us the amenities,” I remark as I glance around the lounge.  “Oh, look.  Black Magic roses.  I knew The Mansion had good taste.” 
 
I see a small storm cloud flit across Terry's face as he leads me to the vase.  It can't be because of the arrangement; he knows the Black Magics are my favorite roses.  Deep, dark burgundy, velvety petals that have to be special ordered from most florists; they are not the traditional red rose.  Terry sends them to me so often I think Appletree keeps a dozen in stock especially for his orders.
 
“Read the card.”  He steps close behind me and buries his face in my hair, breathing in deeply. 
 
It isn't the standard Mansion flower arrangement after all; the envelope is Appletree.  The card is white, written in his unmistakable, precise hand.



I am speechless, and for a change, I am silent.  I can only step back, closer into him, lean on that solid chest I had fallen in love with long before, and let him hold me. 
 
“They were supposed to be in the bedroom so you would see them after I romanced you.  I'm delivering on my promise of romance and roses.  The moonlight will have to wait, but I can give you a sunset.”  The lounge doors to the terrace are open, and I see another bottle of champagne sitting in a wine stand between two upholstered, patio chairs.
 
The slight limp is miraculously gone as he takes a step towards the terrace and holds out his hand for me to join him. 
 
“This is a set up!  You’re not dog tired?”
 
“I’m tired, but not as exhausted as you are.”  I'm still amazed at how small my hand looks in his as we walk together into the fading sunlight and watch it together silently, drinking our champagne as we wrap ourselves up in each other.
 
Dallas has remarkable skies.  The daytime sky has many colors of blue, one morphing into another, from bright blue high overhead to robin's egg at the horizon.  The sunsets are perhaps more spectacular.  The daytime blue sky fades to the color of Terry's eyes when he wears a blue dress shirt before the half-domed setting sun asserts its last power turning the lower sky almost fluorescent orange.  The band between the two is pale lavender and joins them imperceptibly.  The orange changes to pink as the night sky encroaches down onto the horizon, and the lights in Dallas' remarkable nightscape below us twinkle on one by one like so many stars thrown down onto the prairie.  The downtown skyline displays its beauty with lights in offices showcasing their outlines, so unlike the drab business-like facade it wears during the day.
 
Partway through watching our everchanging twilight canvas, Nessun Dorma drifts from the suite.  The romantic musical passage speaks for us.
 
 
ROBERT
I went to the car park myself to retrieve their bags, stopping at the Concierge Desk to retrieve the keys from the less than attentive young man standing there.  Mr. Thorne's generous tips to the hotel and restaurant staffs when he booked the suite weeks ago assured his plan would be flawlessly executed, and any spontaneous wishes would be answered immediately.  He had gone so far as to meet with the staff who would be on duty tonight to explain what he wanted; the Concierge on duty tonight is filling in for the usual gentleman whose wife had gone into labour and, as such, feels no such commitment.  Mr. Thorne’s engaging personality guarantees everyone who spoke with him earlier will serve him happily.
 
I placed their bags in the bedroom, inserted the CD Mr. Thorne had in the outer pocket of his laptop carrying case in the player as instructed, and began it with Track One before pressing the random play.  I refilled the wine stand with ice before allowing myself a small intrusion on the handsome couple by watching them silhouetted in the twilight.  Later tonight the sky will be the color of Ms. Walker's dress.
 
 
TERRY
She's been quiet watching the sunset, so unlike the chatterbox she has been over the last few weeks.  Granted, the surfeit of words was at my request, but I now have, among other random topics, a full understanding on each ingredient trade-off rationale she uses when cooking, the satisfaction she receives sitting with the dogs dozing beside her, her frustration in dealing with the phone company, and her love for me.  That last one was hard for her; she started and stopped many evenings until one night it all came pouring out – no hesitations, no word searches through that vast vocabulary she stores in her brain – she gave me every reassurance a man could ever want on my importance in her life.  I had finally given her the time and space to fit all the pieces together and to come to terms with her feelings.
 
“Tell me.”  Those two words have become my gentle reminder for her to open up to me.  I know I may never see the total depth of her thoughts and feelings.  When she is lost inside herself as she is now is when I most want her to take my hand to let me in with her. 
 
“It's perfect, and perfection scares me; it can't last.  I wonder what will go wrong next even while I'm storing the memories of the peak to pull out later.”
 
“This moment can last; remember the flowers are in the wrong room.”
 
She smiles up at me.  “It's the small flaws that add interest to the beauty of the moment.  But I'll take whatever blemish there is so this peace can continue.”
 
Diana amazes me with her ability to move slightly and have such a large impact.  She does it when she rides.  I don't see her move at all yet Jack's hindquarters drop, and his stride becomes stronger.  She did it with me just now.  I barely felt her unbutton my coat, open it, and wrap herself inside with me.  Her contented sigh tells me all is right with her world.
 
“Boomer, I thought anniversaries didn't mean much to you.  September 15th came and went, and you didn't say a word.  I took my cues from you.  I was a little disappointed but not enough to say anything.  When did you have enough time to do all this?”
 
“You were so busy being a wedding planner, competing, running the farm, and getting our finances sorted, I thought you’d welcome a bit of down time after the wedding celebration madhouse.”
 
“I do treasure the quiet time with you.”  She reached up to stroke my face, and I leaned into her palm.  “I rationalized your forgetfulness as our having so many different dates that we could call an anniversary.  For some of them, neither one of us knows the date.  We could pick almost any day in the fall, and something significant happened for us on that day.  Maybe we should declare Reags' and Max's wedding as the date.”
 
“I want a date that is uniquely ours, not one we share with anyone else we know.  I know, I know.  I’m a selfish bastard.  September 15th works a treat for me.”  I give her palm a quick kiss.  “Let's go inside.  Whilst your dress is fetching on you, it isn’t made for a night outdoors.  Besides, I have a couple of things to do before I am all yours.” 
 
When Diana is comfortable she is reluctant to move.  Oft times she simply lies on me; I can feel her becoming heavier on me.  She displays her unwillingness this time by tightening her hold on me. 
 
“I could pick you up and carry you.”
 
“Don't you dare!” she laughingly warns me as she steps away from me, and we walk back to the lounge.  “When we were getting off the elevator, what was that devilment in your eye?”
 
I'm surprised she asked; she so often has me sussed that it's eerie.  “I had thoughts of carrying you over the threshold.”
 
“I'm glad you didn't.  As tired as your leg must be, we’d have been in a heap.”
 
“Diana, the fucker is fine.  I've learnt how to fake the limp.”  To prove the fucker is fine I pick her up and carry her the few steps to the sofa while she laughs at my foolish gesture.  I get us sorted on the sofa, and she frisks me to find my phone. 
 
She does not begrudge the fact that I have the weekend desk for the firm.  Marjorie hated the hours I worked; she seemed to ignore the fact that by marrying the General's daughter, I had to work harder and be more accomplished to gain a modicum of respect from my troops and overcome their prejudice.  Alice was my full time job; she never thought she and Peter shouldn't be my only concern.  Miranda and I were so sporadic she never understood the full-time nature of my work or the hours I needed to put in; I scheduled round her demands.  Diana understands working the extra hours at night and on weekends; she worked them herself when she was in corporate America.  With the horses the long hours are spread throughout the day, but horses don’t recognise weekends. 
 
What she doesn't understand is my taking time off mid-week if we have a bit of down time at the office.  She expects me to be at the office at least eight hours a day and then train and stay in shape after normal business hours.  Diana has never had her own business and doesn’t understand the perks.
 
She even understands when I bring home company classified documents and lock myself in the library for hours without her.  When I emerge, her only response is, “I'm so glad to see you.”      
 
“That's right.  I bet neither you nor Dino have checked messages since before noon.”
 
“We can only hope the world chose today to try to be nice to itself.”
 
Diana takes off her shoes, and, when she leaves my side, she has lost four inches in height.  She pads to the wine stand and brings the bottle to refill our flutes as I check my cell.  I stretch out on the sofa propping my back on the arm.  Diana lies on top of me with her head on my chest. 
 
“The world is kind today.  But I do need to make two phone calls.”  She assumes they are business calls and rises from the sofa to give me privacy; I reach for her hand and pull her back down. 
 
I find the Adolphus phone number and dial.  “Room 1633, please.” 
 
Diana recognizes the mids' room number.  Her wrinkled brow asks the question for her.  Such a lovely, beautiful, expressive face.
 
“Thorne here.  I wanted you lads to know the boys will be in early tomorrow to remove the bugs.” 
 
Diana's cackle is infectious.  “You let them think ....”
 
“Wait.  There's more.”
 
I hit redial, forcing my cheeriness to disappear before I am connected.  “Room 1635, please.”  I reach the other voice mail as I had hoped.  “Thorne here.  We didn't have the room bugged.  You lads were home free on your debriefs.”
 
Diana falls across my chest laughing.  “They won't know which to believe.”
 
“Keeps them on their toes.”
 
“OK, what now?  You’ve been so full of surprises today, even more so than normal, I don't know what to expect next.  First, you gave me the earrings.  I didn't realize the Best Man gave the Honor Attendant a gift.  I didn't read in any of my research about that tradition.”
 
“They weren't for the wedding.  They're my belated anniversary present to you.”  I play with the pale blue topazes and diamonds in her ears, and enjoyment is written all over her.  It had taken me forever to find stones to match Gran.  Diana had given me such hope for the future I had started the search soon after I met her.  The jeweler told me it would be easier to find old diamonds than old topazes, but he looked.  And looked.  And looked.  He’d made several dry runs on the setting design I sketched for him to see how difficult it would be to emulate the filigree before finding the stones.  It took him three tries to get it right once he had the stones in his hands.  It didn’t help that the filigree work he did wasn’t as precise as the image in my mind.  I must be losing some of my engineering skills …of course, one needn’t be a good artist to be a good engineer, and I have spent the majority of my time since uni blowing things up rather than designing them. 
 
“They're beautiful.  Thank you.  My hands were shaking so badly Vickie had to put them in my ears.  What a wuss I wass.”  Her attempt at rhyming makes me laugh.
 
Diana sits up and puts her feet on the table in front of the sofa where we are comfortably ensconced, unwilling to break our contentment.  Our conversations, particularly today, are important and satisfying.  Like all our conversations we will range far and wide, jumping from topic to topic.  Even a nimble mind can be left behind when Lady starts chatting.
 
She rearranges the Town and Country and Architectural Digest magazines to pillow her stocking clad feet.  I follow her lead, settle into the sofa, slipping off my shoes, and position my feet on the table next to hers.  She starts a game of footsie, tapping my big feet with her smaller ones and retreating.  We giggle at the incongruity of two formally dressed adults playing a childish game. 
 
We’ve talked so little about today and our reactions to it.  Diana needs a jump-start to begin telling me what she is thinking.  “Appletree Flowers went above and beyond the call of duty today.  I think they shut the shop down to tend to Reags' and Max's flowers.”
 
Of course Diana has all the G2.  “Not quite.  TEO is a preferred customer for the shop, and Angela, Sonia, and Vickie wanted to see with whom they'd been dealing all these years; all three of them wanted to set up the wedding.  Since they only needed one person to get the flowers out, they couldn't find an equitable way to choose who came so they indulged themselves.  Vickie told me they left the ditzy high school girl there to run things; it was the only solution.  She’s dreading trying to sort out the paperwork and screwed up orders Ditz took today.  You and Max are the only two they’ve met in person; Reags and I know Chris, the delivery guy, very well.  Now Appletree is up to speed on everyone.”
 
“I learnt long ago to get to know my local florist, be nice to them, acknowledge their talent and hard work, and they’ll do anything for you.”
 
“Good strategy, but where you're concerned, it's your easy charm that gets you what you want.”  She tapped my foot harder making her point.
 
“The charm factors in on the 'be nice' part for the times when I may not be so nice or have to ask for an extraordinary favor.  Like the morning after Labour Day last year with your flowers.  I called Vickie from London to order the flowers and beg her to rearrange the delivery schedule so I could enclose a personal note to you.  I couldn't even give her my arrival time.  She opened the shop early and had to wait on me to finish my note to you.  It took me for-bloody-ever to write it; the words had to be correct – enticing but correct.  I started several times.”
 
“The words were perfect …just like you.”  I’m rewarded with her kiss lightly brushed across my lips, and she remains draped across me.  “I left out parts of it when Reags asked me to read it to her.” 
 
“Irish hadn't taken my advice on florists before; I think that’s likely to change because of Ellie.  I kept telling him he needed to go in and order flowers rather than over the phone.  Dino KNEW Vickie had to be short and dumpy; he said no one with a voice sounding that good on the phone could be good looking.  He said he'd rather listen to Vickie's voice than be disappointed in her looks.  He was pleasantly surprised today.”
 
“She was everywhere before the wedding.  She was in and out of our dressing room half a dozen times.  She knows how to do customer service well.  And she’s so calm.”
 
“When she wasn't with you lot she was with us.  Sonia tried to put on our boutonnières, but she's so short, it was a contortionists’ match.  We were bent over, and she was on tiptoe.  Not a one of us, not even the mids, had sense enough to sit down.  Vickie had to step in to get our flowers on in time for the ceremony.  She seemed quite taken with East.”
 
“There's a lot there to like.” 
 
“I had expected you to spend more time with him.”  A year ago, I had firmly believed I could easily lose Diana to East when they met.  I have tried to understand her ‘horsey’ world as she has an uncanny understanding of mine.  I worked hard at learning to be a groom for Jack and her last spring.  I even got the knack of walking Jack and loosening his girth simultaneously while he was still high from his cross-country run.  On the drive down to the first event she allowed me to attend officially but weeks before she promoted me to groom, she briefed me on the politics.  I could only shake my head.  The equestrian community has all the factions of an Iraqi election.   
 
“He's not my type.  Too hot headed.  You may be angry sometimes, but you won't show it unless it’s really bad.  You are my type.  East and I can talk horses together, but I doubt he could debate politics with me or argue the other perspective the way you do when I change sides mid-stream.  In addition, he's too easy for me to read.”  Diana, even with our few disagreements, has given me every reason to trust her.  Misunderstand her, yes.  Distrust her, never.
 
“And I'm not?  The way you can read my thoughts can be disconcerting since I pride myself on being impassive.”
 
“Are you sure you meant 'disconcerting,' there, Boomer?  And I would say you're more inscrutable than impassive.  People can tell you’re thinking; they just don't know what you’re thinking.”
 
“Actually, your ability to read my thoughts scares me pissless at times.  Like the DMA exhibition opening when I was talking to the Risk Management chap who wanted the quote immediately for us taking on his company.  You were completely across the gallery when it started getting dicey, and yet, there you were to rescue me.  I was quite sure my distaste for him was apparent, and he saw it.  You were bloody brilliant in extricating me.”
 
“He doesn't know you as well as I do.  When I first looked over, you were talking intently to him.  You were leaning on your cane a smidgen more is all.  I didn't save you that night; I wanted a hug.  Speaking of hiding things well.  Is it safe yet to kid Dino about Ellie?”
 
“Well, for all we know at this moment, Irish only danced with Ellie a few times at a wedding.”
 
She looks at me aghast.  “You speak symbols much better than you read them.  Did you notice who all he danced with at the wedding?”
 
“The bride, the Honour Attendant, the bridesmaids, and Ellie.  Diana, yes, weddings are for statements, but Dino and Ellie will be better served letting them sort out their feelings on their own.  With Dino you never can tell.”
 
 
DIANA
Terry’s right.  I wouldn’t wish the scrutiny he and I had been under this past year on anyone.  Reags was hoping I had found someone – finally; Dino wanted to be sure Terry wasn't on some testosterone-loaded power play.  Max wanted to be sure my honor was protected and preserved.  My small community where we live were titillated by the ‘rich guy’ who had moved in with me; Yvette, our own desperate housewife, was waiting for any indication she could swoop in and take Terry away from me, the mousy, horsey woman who lived next door.  Of course, from the way Dino and Ellie looked at each other while they were dancing, they were having a far more 'normal' dating relationship than did Terry and I.  They looked like they were together but not gob smacked with each other; they seem far less passionate than Terry and I.   
 
“How soon after the hearing in Palestine do you think they started dating?”  Maybe Terry has a better time frame than I do.
 
“He was much calmer in Cairo than normal so I would say a few months by then; I'd guess shortly after the first of the year.  When did he start slagging off dinner with us?”
 
I'm somewhat abashed at the answer I’ll have to give him.  He did want to know what I was thinking even though it would be negative about him.  I'm too tired to measure my words or try to soften them. 
 
“About the time you and I were beginning to get on each other's nerves.  I thought he didn't want to be anywhere in the vicinity when we imploded – fear of flying shrapnel.  I never dreamed he was working extra hard during the week so he could trot off to Palestine on the weekends.”  We laugh softly at the rough patch we had gone through when I was holding everything in while he was recuperating. 
 
My elbow nudge in his ribs punctuates my kidding.  “You were pretty cute hobbling out to the barn as fast as your leg and crutches could carry you though I didn't think so at the time.  I'm sorry I was such a mother hen.  On everything else you do, I believe you’re a big boy and can do what you want and bear the consequences.  I have no idea why I couldn't try to allow you some independence about your leg.”
 
Terry looks distinctly uncomfortable with my bringing up his wound.  “Don't be sorry, Diana.  I'd been through it before; you hadn't.  You really didn't know what to expect on the rehab.  As hard as I push on every other part of my life, you couldn't know that I drop back on pushing myself medically.”
 
I have to laugh at that.  “You call that dropping back?”
 
“Instead of going at it 200%, I listened to what my body was telling me and did only a little more than it thought it should,” Mr. Smug responds.  He becomes serious.  “I had to lighten up.  I thought putting you through all the emotions – the anger, the fear – with me would have served neither of us well; I was wrong.  I took some of it out on you without ever explaining why.  I was afraid if I lost my leg you wouldn't be able to handle it.  Half the time I've known you I've been seriously banged up.  You've been amazing through all of it.  It was my own fear of being less than a whole man that put me on edge.  When you would fuss over me, whilst I did enjoy it, I could see you having to do those same things for the rest of your life if I was lucky enough for you still to want me as an invalid.  I didn't want you to have to go through your life with me as a millstone round your neck.”
 
“One leg doesn't make or break you as a man.  You're more than a sum of your parts.  Never fear.  If you’re ever injured so badly that it changes your physical abilities, once you’re healthy, I won't be so solicitous.  How the hell did we get on this again?” 
 
“It's not again.  I never told you what I was thinking or feeling then.  I thought if I did, you’d give me the socially correct answer and stay with me out of loyalty or worse, pity.”
 
“I loved you then, Boomer.  I love you now.  I never once thought about throwing you out, and I can't now.  You banished all talk and thoughts of departures – a damn good idea on your part and one I am happy to oblige.  There are things you can't do even now you are healthy, though you’ll never admit it.”
 
“Name one thing I can't do!”
 
“Your omelets are flat.  Not enough limberness in your wrist to whip enough air into it.  I can't do it either if it makes you feel better.”
 
“So now you want me limp wristed.  Of all the things I am willing to change for you, Lady, that’s not one of them.”  His chuckled sigh lets me know he hasn't taken my remark to heart.  “I can live with making lousy omelets.  I'll stick with punched up scrambled eggs when I cook breakfast.  I’ll stop calling them omelets.”
 
Slowly but surely, the music playing in the background begins percolating up from my subconscious.  When Original Sin begins playing, I am sure it was the CD I had made for Terry to try to tell him of our year.  “Do you have it with you at all times?”
 
“Not the one you made me.  I burned this copy.  It doesn't have the liner notes so it’s suitable for public consumption.  The words you wrote for me, they're too personal for anyone else to have.” 
 
“How did Robert know to play it?  Was Project involved?  When did you plan all this?”
 
“No software was utilised during the planning of this mission.”  I love the way he makes me laugh.  “A few well placed words, a few requests – I do know my way round a hotel, you know.  Most of the niceties you would think are extravagances are standard for The Mansion.  I wanted you to see the Thorne touches and know they’re yours.”  His hand stroking down my arm and trailing across my bare chest did have the Thorne touch.  I love the way he makes me putty in his hands; at times like this, he could tell or ask me  anything, and I would agree with him. 
 
His hand trailed lower onto my dress.  “I love how soft your skin is.  I can scarcely tell the difference between you and the satin of your dress.” 
 
 
TERRY
I know how to make love to this woman.  I know nibbling on her ear lobes makes her arch up into me.  I know kissing her target spot will cause her long neck to bend away from me asking for more.  I know trailing my fingers across her chest will create shivers in her.  I know how to bring her close to the edge while we are fully dressed and how to bring her back to me without being killed.
 
“I love your romantic ideas.”  Diana also knows how to make love to me in public.  Her hand on my neck, her lips on my Adam's apple as she speaks, her smile that is only for me.  She is holding back tonight; she could just as easily have had me stripped and in bed if she had wished.  She has no idea what I have in mind; Diana is letting me lead.
 
“I have reservations for dinner downstairs in a few.  Do you want to change?”
 
“I don't have anything to change into but my Levis.”
 
“Oh, yes, you do.  Whilst I was home this morning, I did check on the dogs and the herd, but my main reason for taking the long hike north was to get one of your little black dresses.”
 
“Then I would like to change.  And get a shower.  I feel like I’ve worked all day.”
 
“You did.  You were the ‘wedding planner.’” 
 
“Thank you for thinking of clothes; if it were springtime we’d look like a prom date dressed like this showing up for our special dinner.  You with your cummerbund matching my dress.”  She picks up her shoes, snags the champagne bottle, leads me to the suite's bedroom, and opens the closet door to where my suit and her dress hang.  “Could you unzip me, please?”
 
Diana is profuse with her thanks but rarely says please.  Her tone and her choice of words usually say 'please' for her.  When she does use the word itself with me, she is about to amaze and delight me.  Right before she floors me with a surprise, her eyes flash with the enjoyment she anticipates from my reaction.  With her back to me, I can't see her eyes to tell if the twinkle is there.  I would bet right now they are shining even though I don’t know why.
 
Diana lets her dress fall to the floor and steps out of it.  I am stunned as she steps into her shoes again; I am astounded when she turns round to me. 
 
“You've had that on all day?”  Under her dress is a bustier Baz Luhrmann could have used in Moulin Rouge with a matching thong.  Diana is perfection.  The bustier is the same blue satin as her dress but overlaid with a sheer, open black lace work and suspenders holding her stockings.  It accents the girls, and it seems her waist is smaller.  My mouth goes dry, and further speech will be impossible. 
 
“Yes, and I didn't complain once about how tight it is; I wanted you to be surprised.  Aren't you proud of me?”  I can only nod and look.  The incongruity of her words and her sexpot look is endearing.  She had this planned.  
 
“I gather you like it.”  I can nod again and keep looking.  At least the blood flow to my eyes is still functioning.  With help of a healthy slug from the champagne bottle, my voice finally returns.
 
“Bloody hell, Diana!  How did you keep that a secret from me until now and why?”
 
“You've never been all that interested in my under things unless you’re getting me out of them.  They’ve been in the bottom of my drawer since we picked up the dresses months ago.  The why is simple.  Can you imagine your reaction standing at the altar knowing I had this on under my dress?”
 
Diana is smiling with a promise.  A lady in public and a whore in the bedroom.  And she's all mine.  I continue to stare at her as she struts to me, takes off my unknotted tie, and tosses it on the bedroom’s sofa.  I let her. 
 
“My thoughts would have been most inappropriate for a Christian wedding ceremony.  Some ancient, pagan rites would have been right.  I don’t want to think about getting through the reception.”  She steps closer to unbutton my shirt and smiles at me the same way she did the night we met in Dallas as she puts my shirt studs in my pants pockets and lingers there for not long enough.  I nudge her backwards to take in every man's wet dream.  “I could look at you in that for days.” 
 
She plants her hand in the middle of my chest and gently pushes me to the sofa to join the only piece of clothing I have lost, my tie.  Once I am settled, Lady straddles my legs and makes herself comfortable spreading my shirt open further for her kisses up my chest.  “Fine.  The bustier stays on while I jump your bones.”
 
If I were not so intent on drinking in this beauty in front of me, my eyes would have rolled back into my head long ago.  Diana is rolling her crotch onto mine, and her face is lost in the sensation, her head thrown back exposing her neck for my devouring kisses. 
 
The warm, caring, loving, soft woman is gone, lost in a heated passion that had been AWOL during the summer but is back with a vengeance.  Diana is demanding, sexy, lusty, ferocious, abandoned – wild.  A wildness I haven't seen before.  As she slides down my legs to give herself room to unzip my trousers, Diana's hands take over stroking my cock, protecting me. 
 
Once her frenzy starts she gives me no quarter.  She knows what she wants and how she wants it.  She glides up and down my needy cock, teasing me in a totally unnecessary way and satisfying her clit’s need for contact; on one of her slides as I rise to stay with her, she tugs my pants and shorts down and out of the way.  I slide the string between her legs holding the impossibly sheer thong to her aside.  
 
She looks directly into my eyes sliding ever so slowly down onto me.  My guttural “Unh” as she drives me wild pulling me into her does not escape her notice.  Once she feels my hair on her crotch, she returns to the grind she began with when she first put me on the sofa.  Our mouths battle to express the hunger and need we feel.
 
She pulls back from our kisses and deliberately looks down dragging my eyes with the force of her will; we are suspended in time.  Diana leans back and draws my hand to her lips encouraging me open her to see more.  I part her outer lips to take in her ruffled inner core wrapped around me.  She leans back farther and cups my balls softly.  She handles every part of me deftly to keep me on edge but no further.
 
She places my other hand on her lower belly and presses it down.  “Can you feel where you are?” 
 
She starts to rise from me, and I swear I can feel the ridge slip under my hand until she holds only my helmet in her opening and squeezes down on me.  Diana may have pushed me too far for me to last very long.  Every impulse in me is demanding release.         
 
Diana's hands are on my shoulders giving her assault on me added leverage and power.  She starts an uneven, varied tempo – slow, fast – surprising me, keeping me from finding the rhythm to complete us; she hears my pleasure and frustration in my growls and moans.  She drives deeply onto me, and I can see her satin-clad chest in my face – another tease.  I ease her breasts up and out and feast on them. 
 
I hear in her breathing and feel the spasm in her lower back how close she is.  “God, Terry, I love you.” she gasps out as she begins to shake and spasms about me, drawing me to her demanding my physical response, still riding me.  She is pulling the last bit from me.  I can only groan as she stills and leans forward onto me.  I sink back onto the sofa so very glad to be a very spent Terry Thorne, and this changeling loves me. 
 
I pull her head down onto my shoulder.  We are still joined as we get our breath back, and I cradle her gently.  “I thought our days of the wild, hanging from the chandelier sex were over before we met each other.  I was wrong.  Perhaps it's the bustier.  Can we get several more of those made?”  I kiss her gently on the cheek and move some of her damp ringlets from her face.
 
When Maxie gets back from his honeymoon, we’re going to have to compare notes on bustiers and make a concerted effort to get Diana or Reags to tell us where they got them.  We're ordering them by the dozen.
  
 
DIANA
It feels strangely different to be on Terry's lap feeling him fade away inside me yet having his strong presence all around me.  “I think I put us on date footing and took away from your romantic evening.”
 
“Nonsense.  You may have taken away from your romantic evening, but mine is quite rosy right now.”  I start to squirm on him hoping for a sign of life from Terry Junior until he lifts me and puts me down on the sofa, shedding his pants and jacket to lie beside me.  Unconsciously, his hand drifts between my legs.  He won't be with me much longer before he falls asleep.
 
Tears begin leaking from my eyes; one falls on his shoulder. 
 
“Tell me.”  He asks softly, but there's not a hint of his sleepy voice, a deep but slurred sound.  The velvet overtakes the rough edge right before he falls asleep.
 
“The whole day and just now ...it's overwhelming.  All the emotions.  When Max and Reags were saying their vows, I was thinking that I couldn't be any more committed to you than I was right then.  You know that, don't you?”
 
“Yes, Lady.  I do.”
 
“I wanted to be standing with you.  I needed to touch you so much.  You needed to know right that very second how much I love you, how much you mean to me, what a wonderful life you've given me.  My life was missing something before I met you.  I didn't think it was possible, but you've added so much.
 
“The ceremony was moving.  I knew I ought to be paying attention to them, but I couldn't take my eyes off you.  And then you were wearing my ring.”
 
“Our ring,” he gently reminds me.
 
“Our ring.  Even as you were pulling Reags' ring from the same finger, I could only see that you were wearing it.  You were having such a hard time getting her ring off to give to Max until you finally stopped looking at me and saw where your knuckle caught it.  You did give the congregation a good laugh.  Every wedding ceremony has to have a light moment; you got to give it to Max and Reags.  I was afraid it would be me. 
 
“It was enough that you were showing the world you have my last little bit.  I don't need any more than your willingness to show the world I’m yours.  Things are fine the way they are.  A piece of paper can't validate what I feel for you.”  I am grateful my eyes only leak when this kind of emotion starts.  He waits to be sure I’ve said everything I’m capable of saying now.
 
“You didn't have to be near me.  Your eyes spoke volumes.  They told me everything I needed during the ceremony.  We wore our 'adult personas' today.  We had responsibilities.  That doesn't mean I didn't want to be by your side.  At the private ceremony yesterday, I said the same vows Max did, only mine were silent.”
 
“They weren't so silent.  I heard every word you said.  Is being married important to you?”
 
“Not so much any more.  Being a good partner to you is much more important to me.  I want anyone who passes us to know that you and our life together mean the world to me; more importantly, I want you to know it.  I don't give a whit about the little old ladies who married because it was the socially correct behaviour and feel they have a right to pass judgment on the rest of the world.  I wonder if they were always so judgmental or if they actually lived their lives.  I hope they’re envious of how happy we are and can remember a love they had once upon a time.  I want us to live our lives by our own standards.  You are a fine, honourable woman ...”
 
“You can say that after the licentious display I put on a while ago?”
 
“You are a fine, honourable woman who has a right, no, an obligation to root me senseless whenever you want, even to the point of making us miss dinner reservations months in the making.”  I pinched his bare bum to let him know the tears were over; we could and would still discuss the wedding but in a much lighter vein.
 
 
ROBERT
When my guests had not emerged from the bedroom by their arranged restaurant reservation time, I called Chef Chris to make the other accommodations as specified by Mr. Thorne's contingency plan.  I was quite pleased with Chris’ reaction; it helped he, too, had a copy of the plans even if he had not deigned to attend Mr. Thorne's earlier meeting. 
 
Chefs.  They are a profession unto themselves.
 
My next call was to Morris, the maitre d’.  He was happy to report a young couple, clearly impressed with the dining room, was waiting to be seated.  He would be delighted to seat them at the table Mr. Thorne had reserved.  He could then put the obnoxious Saturday night regulars at the less desirable table.
 
Maitre d’s.  They are a profession unto themselves.
 
Mr. Thorne's call came from the phone in the bath.  “Mate, we'll be dining en suite, but we've decided to go down and have a drink at the bar.”  I can hear the sound of the shower in the background.
 
“Very well, Sir.  I'll finish making the arrangements.”  Butlers are trained to say, “Very well, Sir.” when we wish to burst into laughter.  I can only speculate, but I believe Mr. Thorne should have made the contingency plan the primary.  From the moment the elevator doors opened, it was apparent my guests would not be leaving my care for long, if at all, during their stay. 
 
My duties tonight will be to make their dinner en suite as perfect as it would have been in the dining room.  I do hope Mr. Thorne will not expect me to serve the food courses blindfolded.  When they leave for their drinks, I will have time enough to set the table and begin having the courses delivered here.  I can finish my cigar before beginning my preparations.
 
Butlers.  We are a profession unto ourselves.
 
*
 
Their exit from the elevator this time was far more sedate than earlier.  Ms. Walker and Mr. Thorne were standing closely together, his arm round her shoulders.  Other than Ms. Walker's tousled hair, there was no outward physical manifestation of what might have occurred in the elevator.  However, their very demeanour displays she is the most important person in his world, and he is the centre of her life. 
 
“Good evening, Sir, Madam.  Did you enjoy the piano in the bar?”
 
It is the first time I have heard the lady's voice; it is filled with a bon homie not usually expressed by the women who visit my domain.  “It was wonderful.  At least until Terry asked for one of his footy songs.  I was so glad the piano player is American and doesn't know any of them.”
 
“Now, Diana.  The bar was a bit sombre until then.  Everyone started acting like they were having a better time after that.”
 
Their good-natured bickering was a delight to hear. 
 
 
DIANA
I'm famished.  Breakfast and the hors d’oeuvres and wedding cakes at the reception had left me long ago.  The entire time we were in the bar Terry had been telling me about this wonderful dinner he had ordered for us; he’s so proud of his accomplishment it’s almost as if he created and cooked the dishes himself.  I‘m so hungry I’m ready to eat leather.
 
Bless Robert.  “Would you like your hors d’oeuvres on the terrace, Mr. Thorne?”  He may have feared I would start gnawing at his shoes. 
 
“I think in here else the lady will steal my coat again.”
 
“Very well, Sir.”  Robert escorts us past the elegant table set for the soup course to a small table near the terrace doors – a dimly lit haven for two.  It was set with a small flower arrangement on the far corner, lit candles, and a single fish fork.  Terry’s hands trail down my neck as he seats me while Robert disappears to bring the dishes to the table.
 
I continue the conversation I had started in the elevator.  Terry's kiss to distract me succeeded for a short time.  “What do you think about losing Dolores to a younger man?  I’ll try to be as starry eyed with you as she’s been.  I’ll do my best to show you how you dazzle me.  Tonight is ....  You are ....”
 
“I want to give you all the things you won't give yourself.  You deserve them.  Stop searching for the right words tonight.  Your smile, your eyes – they're talking for you.”  He leans across the corner of the table to kiss my eyes, my lips ever so softly. 
 
“In case I haven't told you today, I love you.”  I'm sure I have, but there are many days when I hadn't said it to make up for.
 
Terry sits back; I prop my chin in my hand to lean towards him.  His eyes flick away from me, and he smiles his thanks to someone behind me.  Robert has caught us in another tender moment.
 
“I recall several times today.”  Terry begins counting on my arm, lifting and lowering his fingers to mark each instance.  “When we woke this morning.  As I put you in the Tahoe.  When you took my arm leaving the altar.  With your toast to Max and Reags.  And...”  He hums Lady Marmalade; at least I think that was the song.
 
“Never mind.  I get the picture.  Am I overdoing it today?”
 
“Not in the least.  I'm storing the sounds for the days you want to throttle me.”  He grips the arm he used to count and shakes it softly. 
 
“Today is turning into one of those days, Boomer.  You didn’t answer my question.  Are you OK with being replaced in Dolores’ eyes?”
 
His eyes sparkle as the loveable rogue he is emerges.  “Ah, but Diana, he’ll have to replace me.”  Terry’s ego is undamaged.  He nods to Robert, and two identical, huge platters of finger foods slide in front of us.  Robert serves two frosty, pilsner glasses filled with dark ale.
 
I’m hungry, but this could suffice for all of dinner.  The carnitas, quesadillas, fajitas, tacos, satays, a tartare, and oysters are specially made in two bite servings using The Mansion’s own exotic ingredients.  Perhaps I will be able to eat the entire dinner and not disappoint Terry.  He did all this to please me.
 
I stop mid bite into my duck quesadilla and reach out to feel the soft wool of Terry’s suit pants.  The Dallas lights out the window, the flavors in the food, the cool wetness of the Shiner Bock, Terry’s warmth radiating through his pant leg all add to my sensory overload.  I wouldn’t change a thing, but we must get through dinner.  “What do you think Max and Reags are doing now?”
 
He covers my hand on his leg and moves it to his inner thigh, caressing the back of my hand.  “IF, and that’s a big IF, their plane was on time, they are going through Customs in Vancouver.  Poor sod, it will be another hour before they get to the hotel.  We’re having a better wedding night than they are.” 
 
“Did you two have a bet on who would get rooted first tonight?”
 
“Not on your life!  WE didn’t have to fly somewhere.  I couldn’t take the poor bastard’s money.”  Terry lifts our hands from his leg, kisses mine, and lays them on the table.  “I have more courses to impress you.  We don’t want to miss them.”
 
“Do you realize we only have about a year left for being ‘in love’ before we settle into comfortable and a good snuggle is enough?”  I slide my hand from beneath his and begin walking my fingers part way up his thigh; I can feel his quad flex under them.
 
“I quite think we have the cuddling down already – sometimes when I’m awake and can enjoy it.  Where did you learn that interesting piece of trivia?”
 
“Your tax dollars at work.”  I hand over my two deviled oysters to Terry in case he needs them for a recharge; that, and I hate oysters of any kind.  “I forgot my book one day when Reags and I were making the last set of rounds to the wedding suppliers; I grabbed one of her journals.  I forget which university did a study on love.  The chemical attraction only lasts two years.  After that, the relationship changes, and you become more comfortable with each other.  You still have moments of lust, but they become fewer and farther between.”
 
 
TERRY
I have to think on Diana’s last finding.  We already are incredibly comfortable with each other.  Part and parcel of my profession is arriving on scene prepared to be comfortable with whatever the situation is.  When I met Diana, I was equipped, ready, and prepared to come into her life.  She was settled as a single woman.  Over the year, she has moved closer to accepting me in her life, danced away from her decision, and finally welcomed the change in her life so much so that when my fears overcame me, she couldn’t see them; she had that much unshakable faith in us together.
 
“Diana, is there a subtext or are you making polite dinner conversation?” 
 
“I’ve learned my lesson.  If I have an underlying concern, I tell you what it is as soon as I’m aware it’s there; I don’t even wait for the right words to identify it.  I make you wade through the definition with me.  I’m not hiding anymore. 
 
“I doubt we fall into that study’s norm.  We may have more or less time for ‘in love,’ but two years probably won’t be our timeline.  I think we used up a year’s worth of spark in the first six months.  Then again, I can’t imagine not having electricity run through me when I see you again after we’ve been apart, and I’ve only been in the barn for 30 minutes.  I can’t even talk when you call unexpectedly.  When we’re together, I have to touch you; I didn’t expect my need for you to still be this strong.  When I let myself analyze my actions, which isn’t too often, I find I’ve turned into a romantic sap.  I don’t want to admit I’ve turned into a girly girl.”  Diana had started talking as a slightly interested analyst looking at an interesting set of data.  She ends up laughing at herself.
 
She takes a deep breath and starts chewing on her lower lip.  She’s concerned about how I’ll react to what she says; her lip chewing gave her away.  “I’d never wanted to be sexy; it embarrassed me.  Now I’m buying completely impractical underwear, trying to seduce you at the drop of your briefcase.”  She shrugs.
 
“Don’t stop.  Seducing me or talking.”  Her whole face lifts with her smile.  Every time I think I understand her, a new facet surfaces.  Tonight has been a mixture of warmth and sizzling heat.      
 
Her hands go up almost in supplication.  “I’m still trying to find new ways to turn you on.  I’m only grateful you aren’t laughing at my pathetic attempts.  I still can’t talk to you when we’re making love.  I don’t know what to say; words fail me.”
 
“You have no idea how you get to me as you are, naturally.  Diana, you can glance at me across a room.  I can see from the look on your face we need to leave, or we’ll have to find a hotel close by because I won’t make it home.  Sexy isn’t what you do; it’s who you are.  You don’t have to be a sexual gymnast for me.  Our sex life is fine – better than fine.  Not that I object to your fancies.  That lovely number you’re wearing now starts my imagination and my libido.  You are in my brain, and you know that is humanity’s largest sex organ.  My love, you are an exceptionally sexy woman.”  I could be the crude bastard we both know I can be, or I can be the romantic sod I keep promising Diana and don’t deliver because I want her so much.
 
How the fuck could I be so arrogant to think I know how to romance this complicated, enchanting woman?  She tosses my plans out the window, and I adore her for it.
 
Romance wins out.  My fingers trace her lips, trailing down her chin and up her cheek.         
 
“I wouldn’t want you any other way than the woman you are right now.  One of the best things about this year is watching you evolve.  A year ago you wouldn’t even have thought about talking to anyone seriously about sex except in veiled, generalized terms, particularly not to me.  You wouldn’t have wanted me to think of you as having fears.  You needed to be perfect.  You finally understand it's the small flaws that add interest to your beauty.  A year ago, ‘fuck’ was your escalated expletive.  Now, it’s your go to swear word as well as one of the ways you love me.”  She breathes a laugh at the truth. 
 
“You’ve changed so much and for the better.  Granted, I’ve poked and prodded you at times to make you open up to me, but you’re worth it.”
 
“You had your doubts in the beginning.”
 
“I wanted the image I had of you; I didn’t care who I hurt in the process.  I was going to have you by willing it.  It’s taken me so long to give you the time and space you need to come to me.”  My sigh tells her what a fool I’ve been.
 
“In pressuring you, I’ve had to look at myself.  Sometimes it seems we’re mirror images of each other.  Your dichotomies and contradictions confound me at times.”  Her cocked eyebrow and wry smile indicated my own complexities have the same effect on her.  “But you are never boring.”
 
“We’ve had some heated words when you’ve pushed me, but I’m glad you did.  You’ve pulled me – sometimes kicking and screaming – from behind my wall.  Does it seem to you we go months with simply being and then make huge commitments because of some traumatic fight?”
 
“It does.  By my calculations, we’re about due for a bluie.  I only hope it isn’t tonight.”
 
Her concern shows in her eyes.  “I know you hate them.  Are tonight and all this your way of trying to forestall one?  You don’t have to buy me off.”
 
“Tonight is about showing you how much I love you.  I know if you have your mind set, no amount of money in the world would stop you from setting me straight.”
 
“Two of the best things I’ve learned this year is I’m not afraid to argue with you; you are so important in my life, I’ve had to fight to keep you.  That’s not right, but I think you know what I mean.  ‘Keep’ sounds so proprietary; I’m not, but I want us together.  I’m trying so hard to be the woman you see.”
 
“What’s the other best thing about the year?”
 
“Rely is different than trust.  I’ve trusted you from the beginning.  Now I rely on you.  I expect to see you pull in the drive at night about the same time.  Sometimes when you’re out of town, I start feeling uneasy if I don’t hear the Jag’s engine at its normal time.  It doesn’t scare me any more to need you.”
 
 
ROBERT
It was a small detail Mr. Thorne had overlooked.  I had laid the dining table settings too far apart across a corner of the table; this formality would never do.  Whilst my guests began their hors d’ouevres, I quickly rectified the oversight.  I removed the leaves from the table and brought it to a more intimate size.  Moving Mr. Thorne’s setting from the head of the table to beside Ms. Walker’s was easily accomplished with no notice from the two who were wrapped within each other.
 
They seemed to have forgotten the rest of dinner.  It will not be the first time in the suite’s history a lavish dinner has gone uneaten. 
 
There appeared to be a lull in conversation though not in the intensity of their interaction.  I believe they may share a small corner of their life with others as they had with me.  This couple is complete within themselves.  The rest of the world could disappear, and they would be fine.
 
Mr. Thorne rose from table, waltzing Ms. Walker to the dining area with a song only they can hear and seating her with a kiss on her neck.      
 
Dinner can begin.
 
 
 
NOTES
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